Insecurities

I know it is normal to feel moments of insecurity in a relationship, but what happens when you cross the line from insecure to paranoid?? I try not to let it happen very often, but unfortunately it does. Like tonight for instance. I know that he's just tired from work (it was in the mid-90's today) and that I should just be happy he came over for my dad's birthday dinner when he was invited at the last second. But then I think about the lack of affection and the fact that it is 10:30 and he is probably already at home and in bed by now and I wonder if it is something I did? I know, I know...I'm being ridiculous. He's tired. Sometimes I'm tired too and I don't want to cuddle and kiss and be cutesy either. It just sucks when that's what I'm expecting and what I get is indifference and weak kisses goodnight. I think maybe I've just had too many bad experiences. I'm starting to overanalyze tonight and it needs to stop! It'll be okay though. I know it will. Because that is something I have in this relationship that I haven't had in the past...confidence.

It's Been Awhile

Hey everyone! Sorry it's been so long. I hope you all can find your way back to my little spot here. I was going to try and put the archives from my previous blog on here, but I haven't figured it out yet, so be patient. I can't write long this morning, because I have to get ready for work in about 10 minutes.

I hope you all have been well in my absence. I actually have very little new things going on in my life at the moment. The revolving boyfriend door seems to have come to a halt, work is work and my friends are all the same. All in all it's been a pretty good four months. Makes for some boring posts, I guess, but I'm happy.

My birthday was just here. It was a great day. Actually the whole weekend was great. Thanks to my best friend ever and my lovely boyfriend. So much better than last year, but we won't go there.

Okay, I just looked at the clock. I really do have to go, but I promise I'll be back to post more later. :-)