So things had improved marginally, only to turn around and get so much worse than they have ever been. The bad part is that I know this is quickly becoming a situation I probably need to get myself out of. But how do I do that? I love him and the thought of having to say those words to him breaks my heart. But I guess it would be better to have my heart broken this way rather than something far worse. How can I keep putting myself through this? The yelling alone is more than I should have ever put up with. I was telling a friend about our latest weekend adventure and she said that it sounds like an abusive relationship. I know there are several kinds of abuse, and the thought has certainly crossed my mind, but it's hard to hear from someone else. I have my mind half made up to do it. I know I'm going to chicken out about 8000 times though before it actually happens.